I find myself hearing this woman’s Manchester accent in my head every time I wake up knowing I shouldn’t have drank…. Here’s a link to the original very British ad for those not familiar https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BMA79vgF2Ow
There’s nothing more to say really other than, I know I shouldn’t have drank, I know I should have stopped…blah blah blah. I’m so fed up of it. It’s getting so old. Although I’m not making great big embarrassing mistakes, or having huge agreements etc, the only downside or reason I feel bad is that I physically feel so bad – my stomach literally treats vodka like poison (after all that is what it is) and rejects the amount I put into it (13 units this time which is the average for me). I was happy whilst drinking/ drunk. I just wasn’t happy when I woke from 3 hours of deep sleep to know that I was about to spend the next 6 hours in the bathroom…….which I did. I am very well acquainted with my bathroom floor tiles… anyway…
So the only thing to do is to create an official BAN of alcohol for one year – set myself a challenge. I know it’s not ideal, and I shouldn’t see it as a ‘game’ to stop drinking, but I know when I set myself a challenge I can do it – and then hopefully after the year the new behaviors will be so well embedded that I won’t want to revert back. I know I can get out of this rut. So this is a year of No VODKA. No SPIRITS. NO GETTING DRUNK.
I’ve re-downloaded the sober time app and started the clock yesterday. I also need to give up the Pepsi max habit – the one can a day is an addiction like any other and is bad for me and my children are now aware of it. When I allow myself that it’s really just a step away from putting the vodka into it….if I don’t have that in the house there’s another obstacle to climb ….that’s how I see it anyway