This time last week I was very drunk. I blacked out, can’t remember the fight me and A had, can’t remember behaving the horrible way he said I did. Can’t remember telling him I fucking hate him and wish I’d never met him. But, tonight I actually feel the same way, well I wouldn’t say I wish i’d not met him because I would never want to not have my kids, but I do hate him. Really. Im so tired of him telling me I am the problem.
There have been a few instances today that have really tested me, him being two of them….and I just need to be strong enough to fucking leave! I wish I could throw him out but he just wont go, it’s more his property than mine. He talks me into staying every single fucking time. What is wrong with me. What do I want here…I don’t fucking know!
But I’m sober tonight and that is the most important thing to me at the moment actually, so I’m feeling pretty proud and strong. Nice fast run in the morning. Can’t wait.
Sober Diary 
I promise you sober and strong will carry you through! Put the headlights on! XOXO
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That sounds so hard and so exhausting. But good for you for the sober night 💙 I know how hard that is.
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Staying sober will only help you with hard decisions.
Hugs.
xoxo
Wendy
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