Train again

6th train journey to london in as many week. With my 5 year old this time as she has a recall audition. I’m nervous as I do not want to drink on the train ride home(again) . I am responsible for her and she needs me to be reliable band 💯 present, what if there is some kind of emergency or she is sick? This isn’t even about me, today is for her.

Why do I keep thinking about alcohol today then? For fucks sake. This will pass. Soon it won’t be bothering me on trips like this. I’m dry now , I’m a non-drinker so my Brian just need to be reminded that we don’t do that anymore! We don’t put poison in our bodies. We don’t dig ourselves and wary grave. We don’t put our needs before our kids. And you don’t NEED to drink , thanks brain but that old habit I once used to protect myself and was helpful maybe at the time is no longer helpful to me as I’ve learnt to deal (sometimes just sit) with these emotions and it’s far better. I don’t have to cope with a shit load of other additional problems that come with drinking.

I’m planning on a 4 mile run tonight about 8.30pm, can’t do that drunk! My marathon is 2weeks on Sunday…building up my muscles 💪🏻 come on!!!!!