Train again

6th train journey to london in as many week. With my 5 year old this time as she has a recall audition. I’m nervous as I do not want to drink on the train ride home(again) . I am responsible for her and she needs me to be reliable band 💯 present, what if there

Playing it fucking forward..

So I know that all the times that have come before are part of my “sober journey” and I have learnt from each but it’s getting really old now and I’m bored. I know I need to simply step OFF the cycle, and I have done in the past and will do again. I’m not

Riding out feb with good vibes

So tomorrow will be two weeks since my last episode…I keep reminding myself that even a quiet nights ends with these episodes…not just big events or birthdays etc, ANY NIGHT or afternoon for that matter can turn into one of those awful memories. Last night I had to pop to the corner shop twice after

Still here

1 week sober success (first for a while)

This time last week I was very drunk. I blacked out, can’t remember the fight me and A had, can’t remember behaving the horrible way he said I did. Can’t remember telling him I fucking hate him and wish I’d never met him. But, tonight I actually feel the same way, well I wouldn’t say

School days

It’s me, hi, I’m the problem, it’s me….

Who else thinks this song was written about them? Sometimes it just seems that way doesn’t it, like if I wasn’t here then everything would be ok for everyone else surely? Need to come back later and think… but I’m not going to drink tonight, just putting that out there to the universe