Struggle is real

Fallen

Things had been going so well until last weekend, climaxing in a vodka binge last night. I will blog fully when it hurts less to think (tomorrow) a whole 24 hours of recovery ahead of me today and a busy day it’s going to be too. Meh.

Day 71

Took the kids away for a night on Monday. Still have no car, and it’s been the bank holidays, I could have easily pissed my way through the weekend. I didn’t and I’m so pleased. I realise that it’s always possible to drink sneakily…you can always drink shots sat on the toilet for example, but

So many reasons to drink today V so many reasons NOT to drink today

It’s Sunday – so what – tomorrow is Monday and you shouldn’t start the week off feeling shit, you shouldn’t start any day off feeling shit My car is fucked and in the garage for a week (so no driving for me) – not an excuse to be totally irresponsible for a week – you

Day 49

Still loving this new path I am on. This new lifestyle change and choice I have made to stop harming myself with alcohol. I have found my thoughts starting to wander towards other ways to be destructive however which isn’t comfortable. I know I’m just looking for a new addiction. Ones that my brain considers

Day 43

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