Not going to plan

I haven’t stuck to my word. I’m hungover today. Back here, I’m the cycle, so I’m getting off the cycle, stepping out of it, stepping away from it, trying to be kind to myself. I have to go out and sing with the rock band tonight, that’s going to be fucking hard. Hopefully I’ll be

2023 is the year

I know it is my time now, more than ever my mind set is that I am a non-drinker, well I mean I have to drink, but a non-alcoholic drinker, a non-alcoholic I guess, that’s me!!!! Picture below shows my “I’m ready for this” face…bring it on 2023!!!

Dry December

Just dropping by quickly to say hope everyone is good-it’s been a dry December which is amazing, almost at 3 weeks now….feeling good

Patterns emerging

Last Saturday I taught singing for my usual 9.5, then did a birthday gig 7.30-9.30 and then a second gig 10-12.I earned about £500 and worked hard all day. I was offered booze at the second gig and was a 5minute walk from home so could easily have accepted. This weekend I’ve taught again, we’ve

FOMO

The day after the day after the night before….

I spend my hang over days just wishing the time away and desperate to wake up feeling ‘normal’ the next day. The truth is today I still feel a bit sick to my stomach and tired and groggy. I know why I drank, I knew that I shouldn’t yet I allowed myself to try ‘just

Fucked up

I messed up last night . I’m trying self care today and have had a really good heart to heart with my partner and he’s going to help me. I have to stop these mind games I play with him. It’s not fair on anyone. It had been over two weeks since I last drank