‘Do we have to go through this rigmarole every time….’

I find myself hearing this woman’s Manchester accent in my head every time I wake up knowing I shouldn’t have drank…. Here’s a link to the original very British ad for those not familiar https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BMA79vgF2Ow There’s nothing more to say really other than, I know I shouldn’t have drank, I know I should have stopped…blahContinue reading “‘Do we have to go through this rigmarole every time….’”

Update

I’ve been aware that I’ve been silent for a few weeks now and have been struggling to find the time to update! But things are good! Which silence usually indicates, as when it’s good, I don’t need to come and have these long chats with myself here!! I’ll try to rewind to two weekends ago,Continue reading “Update”

Saturday Saturday, please f*ck off!

It’s Saturday and I want to buy vodka. Again. The thought was actually contemplated whilst in the supermarket, like it was actually an option? Where is this coming from? I got home from the supermarket, which I’d walked around thinking about buying something but didn’t. Unfortunately a toy I bought for my daughter was brokenContinue reading “Saturday Saturday, please f*ck off!”

Oh the Thinks You Can Think!

Today has actually been better – I’ve felt calm (I think because I knew I was going for a 10k run later in the day). I realise if I want to run I do need to put the protein in, and have been having protein shakes and extra dinner tonight….and I feel ok about it,Continue reading “Oh the Thinks You Can Think!”

It’s not you, it’s me…

So, I’ve been talking to a close friend I am able to confide in, and it’s easy to see when I talk out loud that my thoughts aren’t making sense. I think I’m eating enough in one breath, then I say but I’m really not I suppose…..it goes on…the similarities between the things I tellContinue reading “It’s not you, it’s me…”

Weighing up the issues

Hey, I am so grateful for all the supportive comments on my last blog, Ill try to address some of the questions here and think out loud… My partner weighing me – this does seem very controlling, but it is something I agreed to in my care plan when I was discharged from the EDContinue reading “Weighing up the issues”

Choose your poison

I had the best new years eve I can remember …ever I guess! No hangover, no fighting, no embarrassing memories or texts, you know none of the things that are shit about alcohol. There was however – lots of fun, laughter and cheesy dancing with my (almost) 10 & 11 year olds. I planned aContinue reading “Choose your poison”