That Friday Feeling….

Seems my mind is wandering to drink even earlier this week…I’m in a stinking bad mood, and just have that ‘fuck it’ feeling completely. I have to go grocery shopping later this afternoon, so hoping writing this out might set me straight. Things between me and my partner have continued to be shitty and onContinue reading “That Friday Feeling….”

Saturday Saturday, please f*ck off!

It’s Saturday and I want to buy vodka. Again. The thought was actually contemplated whilst in the supermarket, like it was actually an option? Where is this coming from? I got home from the supermarket, which I’d walked around thinking about buying something but didn’t. Unfortunately a toy I bought for my daughter was brokenContinue reading “Saturday Saturday, please f*ck off!”

The Little Things

It’s the little things I love about being sober. Being present in conversations, small moments in time when I remember that I could not or would not have felt a certain way had I been drinking, appreciating my health and time with my children, being a better and more consistent parent to my children. ThereContinue reading “The Little Things”

Oh the Thinks You Can Think!

Today has actually been better – I’ve felt calm (I think because I knew I was going for a 10k run later in the day). I realise if I want to run I do need to put the protein in, and have been having protein shakes and extra dinner tonight….and I feel ok about it,Continue reading “Oh the Thinks You Can Think!”

It’s not you, it’s me…

So, I’ve been talking to a close friend I am able to confide in, and it’s easy to see when I talk out loud that my thoughts aren’t making sense. I think I’m eating enough in one breath, then I say but I’m really not I suppose…..it goes on…the similarities between the things I tellContinue reading “It’s not you, it’s me…”

The happiest of Christmas’s

There has been no drama this holiday season (so far I guess!)..no huge fights, no illness (I mean immense hangovers). It has been a wonderful week, alcohol free, stress free and drama free. Not dull – Ive had this warm glowing feeling inside every time I’ve looked around which feels better than any alcohol high.Continue reading “The happiest of Christmas’s”

Another successful night?!?!???

So, another night out without alcohol last night and I was so glad it was. As usual a night out with my partner Mr A started and ended in an argument and didn’t get much better in between. The good thing was this time, I wasn’t drunk, so I was completely aware and in controlContinue reading “Another successful night?!?!???”