So many reasons to drink today V so many reasons NOT to drink today

It’s Sunday – so what – tomorrow is Monday and you shouldn’t start the week off feeling shit, you shouldn’t start any day off feeling shit My car is fucked and in the garage for a week (so no driving for me) – not an excuse to be totally irresponsible for a week – youContinue reading “So many reasons to drink today V so many reasons NOT to drink today”

I’m back – the struggle is real

Ok – well, THIS is day 1, how many days can I say that? This truly is day 1, I’m joining an online AA, I’ve set myself an open challenge and made it public so I can’t change my mind and ‘start next week’. I will post in the story here EVERYDAY. Nothing new, nothingContinue reading “I’m back – the struggle is real”

‘Do we have to go through this rigmarole every time….’

I find myself hearing this woman’s Manchester accent in my head every time I wake up knowing I shouldn’t have drank…. Here’s a link to the original very British ad for those not familiar https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BMA79vgF2Ow There’s nothing more to say really other than, I know I shouldn’t have drank, I know I should have stopped…blahContinue reading “‘Do we have to go through this rigmarole every time….’”

Is it still summer?

Last week I started to plan having a drink….this is what happens, a lot. I have a break, then one day my Brain just says “well you could” we all know how it goes and how the seed grows in to a huge great big uncontrollable weed that continues to return no matter how manyContinue reading “Is it still summer?”

Update

I’ve been aware that I’ve been silent for a few weeks now and have been struggling to find the time to update! But things are good! Which silence usually indicates, as when it’s good, I don’t need to come and have these long chats with myself here!! I’ll try to rewind to two weekends ago,Continue reading “Update”

That Friday Feeling….

Seems my mind is wandering to drink even earlier this week…I’m in a stinking bad mood, and just have that ‘fuck it’ feeling completely. I have to go grocery shopping later this afternoon, so hoping writing this out might set me straight. Things between me and my partner have continued to be shitty and onContinue reading “That Friday Feeling….”