Day 6 – still week 1?!?!

This feels like a long week! I’ve not missed alcohol as much as I thought I would, but I wasn’t one for drinking every night, I just can’t seem to stop drinking when I do start, and it becomes a game to get as much drink into me as fast as possible without others noticing. I’ve spent my life with secrets – it feels normal to me to be sneaky and not completely honest…which I admit is wrong, but it’s been this way ever since I can remember. I grew up in a loving house with my wonderful mum and three siblings, but unfortunately the love I got from my step-dad was not the normal love a child should receive. Having spent many years dealing with the childhood sexual abuse I am now in a much better place, but it is obvious that it affects the way I deal with things now and is most likely the reason why I have a bad relationship with alcohol. So I grew up holding onto secrets, but it doesn’t mean I have to continue to do so. I need to remember my kids are learning from me, and this is one trait I need to get rid of right away!!