Riding out feb with good vibes

So tomorrow will be two weeks since my last episode…I keep reminding myself that even a quiet nights ends with these episodes…not just big events or birthdays etc, ANY NIGHT or afternoon for that matter can turn into one of those awful memories.

Last night I had to pop to the corner shop twice after school hours which is usually when I would buy alcohol and drink it very quickly or in secret up in my room… last night I resisted and I am so pleased I did. I had the “what about one tonight” thought again today and have so far rode that one out too. I’m super busy with work atm so adding in a guilty hangover to this mix would only make me feel out of control and overwhelmed with things to do. I feel strong and capable right now x